B'Day

26 thats the no. I have completed so many years here on this earth.
Looking back gains and pains and time spend just like that without doing anything considerable.
Goals for future:
1] Concentrate on my courses, I just wanna do it, not to prove any one bt to myself tht I hav it in me.
2] Just wondering y I am not gettin my soulmate, I mean there is nothing like I havent met guys , I did bt it dint worked out and many of the time reason being I meet guys who r much younger than me :(.
3] Concentrate concentrate nd concentrate on my studies nd just do my research properly.
thts all.
I hav to say on my 26th B'day no I hav to say many things bt for now thts all I can think of.
Rite now I am feeling scared, scared of sum unknown, dont know wht is it bt scared.
Bt I just wanna be happy tht I alwys I wanted to be nd bec of God's grace i managed to do so.
ya dere r ups nd downs in life bt u get the strength to manage all sumhow.
I pray frm to God frm my blog tht just gimmme the strength to survive all the odds nd wisdom nd cleverness to take the right decision for my famli nd frinds(hope god listen :) )
He does always.
nd I lov him for tht.
on this 26th B'day I just wanna thnk u God for givin all the love which I am gettin nd also the experiences which makes me wiser.
thanku for every thin love u lottt muuuuuhhhhhhhhh.

Rants

1] Think before u talk- ummm.. difficult because I always manage to do ulta .:) and always end up putting my foot inside my mouth...will try to think before any thing I do.
2] I dont have to be conventional type...I am what I am. dont have to ape anybody or be feel inferior of any one.

Feelings right now...

1] Suddenly feeling grown up.
2] Feeling at ease.
3] Less confused.
4] Relaxed.....loads of things to do..
5] Thinking...what needs to be done in life to be happy?
6] Do we have to be happy in life???
7] Ok fine if you want be to happy what u need to do???
Ans: Do what makes you happy.
9] How will we know what makes us happy???
Ans: ??????....

Wishlists

1] Wanna talk to someone rite now instead od chattin wid dis virtual world.
2] Want a bf...i didnt got one in India neither I am gettin nyone in US..i hav to go to Mars to get one.
3] Want to loose wight...stop eatin browines wid vanilla!!!
4] loose wt so can wear sum smart clothes bec I know I look good in good clothes just need to loose weight.
5] Want to get assistantship as soon as possible...otherwise dont know wht will happen...
6] Oh God, do u have guy like A or A ...if yes plz send him here or send me where he is..pleez .
7] M is very lucky gurl to get A...god bless them :).
8] Want to learn sum form of Dance, a Indian classical or Salsa.
9] Want to play tennis till I sweat out profusely.
10] Want to laugh out loudlllyyy :D.
God plz take a look at my wishlists not askin for more..hopin to get a reply frm u..soon.
till den jus send sumone to talk wid me.

Finally started

ok finally started wid it, after delayin a lot, readin lots n lots of blogs( n also gettin addicted to few of them!!), analyzin, thinkin, writing , deleting, considering the pros n cons of it, e1 I decided to take jump into this pool of virtual world where people put up dere feelings, views, day to day life's facinatin stories, there emotions , happiness, events and all tht infront of the strangers. I know i am not good at pennin down my thoughts one reason tht not very good vocab n unable to express myself properly, always confused. Hope I'll get rid of it . Thinkin hard wht to write in the first post, today's happeinings, some happy, emotional, sad, confused(always) moments or what. I read it sumwhere tht all gr8 ppl used to keep diaries , pennin down there everyday thoughts. So, conclusion keeping diaries used to make ppl great ( easy formula) :).
So ppl here I am, to go down in history for keepin diaries n becoming gr8.:D
Watch out for more random thoghts...